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I awoke on June 22, 2005 and felt something running down my leg. I thought my water had broke, so when I went into the bathroom and it was blood. I was horrified!! I was only 35 weeks and had a perfect pregnancy. This was our first baby. My husband rushed me to the hospital, and when I arrived, the baby had a strong heartbeat. My doctor came in and examined me and said I was losing too much blood, so he decided to do a c-section. My cervix was still shut tight, so I was not in labor. Although, I did feel some mild contractions, but that was due to the bleeding. Everything was still going okay, then they unhooked the fetal monitor for maybe five minutes or so to do a bedside ultrasound so he could check my placenta. He then started seeing on the ultrasound some variations of the heartbeat, so they hooked the monitor back up, and when they did, there was no heartbeat. Within that very few minutes the heartbeat was plummeting and baby was in severe fetal distress. My husband couldn't come with me now, because they had to put me to sleep. I had an emergency c-section. He had her out in less than two minutes. The baby was born stillborn. They worked with her for twenty-five minutes and had a neonatal doctor on the phone three times, and still could not get no heart beat. They couldn't even type her blood because she didn't have any. We did get to hold her a long time as well as the family. They sent the placenta off and it was vasa previa and there was also a velamentous insertion of the umbilical cord. My doctor has been in practice for twenty years and delivered over seven thousand babies, and this was his first case. It upset him greatly and he cried when they brought the baby to me. I have strong faith in God, and I know there was a reason our baby didn't make it. God never puts on us no more than we can bear, and I am thankful that we didn't have to make the decision to take her off life support. All the blood I lost was hers, and although she had a heartbeat when I arrived at the hospital, she could have been brain dead. We just never know. No one knows the hurt you feel when you lose a child until you've been there yourself. We took some real good pictures and I got to keep her blanket, hat, and shirt. The nurses took a lock of her hair and made her handprints and footprints. The hardest thing I have ever done in my life was plan my daughter's funeral. Her name was Kyrsten Brooke Cunningham and she weighed 4lbs., 15oz., and 16 inches long. She was so beautiful!!! It has been over six months now, and I am pregnant again!! We found out about a week before Christmas. Our Christmas miracle!!! The Lord has blessed us with another baby. I am due sometime in August. It does help being pregnant again, but it doesn't take all the pain and hurt away. The Lord needed another little angel in heaven, and we can look forward to seeing her again when we get to heaven. Thank you for letting me share our story. Sandy and Randy
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