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Sydney Mikaylah was our
miracle baby! After surgery in 2002, I had been told (due to damaged
tubes) and previous female surgeries that when/if I was to conceive that
the pregnancy would more than likely be tubal.
Thursday, November 17, 2005 I had an appointment with my OB/GYN thinking maybe I was just having problems with my tubes again, or just needed to switch birth control pills. A pregnancy test was done and was negative......at first. I was at the check out desk with birth control samples in hand, and the nurse walked by me telling me "don't leave", I didn't think anything of it. |
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A moment later the doctor came back and said that the
pregnancy test had turned positive. I was not only ecstatic, but scared to
death, and immediately stopped taking some of my medications for fear that they
would harm the baby. That night I told my husband, Erik, and all he could do
was grin like the Cheshire cat and hug me (this pregnancy was such a blessing to
us). Blood work was done that day as well as the following Monday to see if my
pregnancy hormone levels were rising (thank the Lord they did), since it was too
early to do an ultrasound to ensure it wasn't tubal.
On Thanksgiving Day we told our family which was so delighted (Sydney was to be the first grandchild in my family in 13 years and the first in Erik's). The next morning I began bleeding/spotting (and panicking); calling the OB doctor he stated if it got heavier go on to the hospital, since it could be just implantation, and if not to call the office Monday morning to be worked in. I prayed to the Lord to please do not let me lose this baby. I stayed off of my feet, took it easy, and saw the doctor that Monday morning finding out everything was okay after blood work was done. I had my first ultrasound on Monday, December 5th, which showed the pregnancy wasn't tubal but that I did have placenta previa (which also was the cause for the bleeding/spotting). I had felt wonderful, no morning sickness, not too tired, only the bleeding/spotting.........until Thursday, January 26, 2006. I woke up 14 weeks along with nausea and severe cramping/pain on my right side, I called the doctor and after an ultrasound was done (the baby was fine) I was sent to the hospital (they thought it was my appendix). After blood work every 8 hours and more ultrasounds (on the baby, my bladder, appendix, gall bladder, etc..) I was diagnosed with just round tubal ligament pain with scar tissue not helping, and was discharged a few days later. Following up with the doctor the next week I had felt 100% better. We knew Sydney was going to be something else! When Erik couldn't go with me to the doctor, my parents did (they'd only seen babies on ultrasounds by watching TLC) in one of the ultrasounds that was done 3D Sydney was looking right at us sticking out her tongue. We knew she was going to keep us on our toes and couldn't wait! The rest of the pregnancy could not have been better, the bleeding/spotting stopped, and never in my life had I felt so wonderful! I had a total of 6 ultrasounds with the last being May 12 showing the placenta previa had moved. My 39 week appointment was Wednesday, July 19th (my due date was Monday the 24th); Sydney's heartbeat was good and strong and I had dilated 1-2 cm.. The doctor said if I didn't have Sydney over the weekend then Monday we'd talk about inducing. My husband and I went out to dinner that night (figuring this would be the last time we could do this for a while), went home felt Sydney get the hiccups, and went to bed. July 20th a little after 5:00 a.m., I woke up thinking my water had just broke, went into the bathroom only to realize I was bleeding and knew this was not normal and that something was wrong! We called the doctor which told us that does on occasion happen and to go to the hospital (I was praying he was right). Once there, the nurses (some of the same one's that we met while in the hospital in January) got us into a bed and tried to locate a fetal heartbeat with no success, another nurse came in and had no luck either. They then left to get the physician that was on staff at the hospital (the head of the high risk OB). I told Erik "No one has ever had any problems finding Sydney's heartbeat", he just kissed my forehead, grabbed and held my hand. The physician came in to do an ultrasound and after seeing so many myself, I knew where to look to see if Sydney's heart was beating and seeing it wasn't just began crying. The physician confirmed it, our precious baby girl was gone. Erik and I just held each other and cried, asking "Why". I kept telling Erik it was just a very bad dream and everything was going to be completely fine, Sydney couldn't be gone. They induced my labor, the entire day felt like nothing more than a haze; family, friends from church and work kept pouring in to pray with us and say just how they couldn't believe this had happened when everything had been so great the day before. Different doctors from the group I had been seeing came in to talk to us (the one I saw the day before came in and left crying, just as confused and devastated as us). My water had to be broken around 1:00 in the afternoon. When it came time to push Erik and I decided that we'd like both my parents and his to be in the room, if they wanted. At 9:38 p.m., July 20th, Sydney Mikaylah Cobb was born weighing 6 lbs 12.1oz, and 20" long. There was no noise in the room of a baby crying or a family rejoicing like there should have been, just silence. They placed her in my arms and with Erik next to me and we just cried. We asked to be alone with her and just looked at her for the longest time. We saw she had long fingers, her daddy's feet and toes, but with her momma's pinky toes and pug nose (like her Honeymoms too), we even noticed that she had a beautiful head of hair that looked like it was going to be curly just like her Papas with the chubbiest cheeks! She was such a beautiful, perfect baby. The rest of the family that wanted, came in the room and those that wanted to hold her did. We took so many pictures of her trying as if to freeze time. I was moved to the GYN area of the hospital and the nurse (Lisa) that was with us during the evening and entire delivery brought Sydney to us cleaned and in the prettiest pink outfit with a hat to match wrapped in soft blanket. Erik and I got to hold her for just a little longer before she had to be taken away. On her chart the cause of death was listed as Velamentous Cord Insertion, on the Death Certificate it states Vasa Previa. Everyday I ask God why did this happen? I would never wish this on anyone, but why did he decide that he needed Sydney more up in heaven with him than here with us. I know Sydney had a purpose, I pray God reveals it to me, and know someday he will, and that he eases the heartache that feels as if it will never go away. We were able to tell our previous Sydney goodbye one last time at the funeral home even though we know we'll see her again someday. Until then we will hold her in our hearts, have pictures of her everywhere, and will try our best to be there for others that face this devastating tragedy. We appreciate this foundation being created and pray this tragedy will occur less and less by making others aware! Shannon and Erik Cobb |
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God on His
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